the list

All I want for Christmas is a friend.

I don't even know if I really deserve one anymore. My head is a mess.

reasons to live

Are you keeping track of them? Keep them close.

I need to disconnect to reconnect. Sick of the social network, yet starving for it. When was the last time you felt something real without the glare of the screen in your eyes? I can't even be lonely without announcing it to the world.

"For such a recluse and an introvert, this passion for closeness seems odd."

Why?

Constantly torn between broadcasting my whole life on the internet and deleting any trace that I was ever here.

I miss this.

"Who's she? Just a friend."
And oceans are merely dew upon the land.

-Bob Hicok

What keeps me safe is what keeps me lonely.

In less than 3 weeks the person that knows me better than anyone is moving across the country. I'm already lost without her.

Relapse

One night with you breathed life back into all of the words that I thought had been lost.

The one thing that I can't talk to anyone about is the thing that eats me up the most.

I don't know how to sleep without you beside me.

Who needs who?

Yeah, I could have told you to fuck off 3 months ago but where is the fun in that? It seems like you're finally starting to figure it out though.


"What will you do when there's no friends to fall back on because they've all been stepped on?"

vindicate - to set free

"I am flawed, but I am cleaning up so well."

At least I'm trying.

I want blood.

http://askheychris.livejournal.com/291476.html

I'm more anxious to read this than I have been for any book in the past 5 years. It's my obsession with confession.

Let's talk sexual politics and how you don't get it.

"Everything you do, you pay for. So if you're going to kiss me, you'd best be prepared to bleed."

If Winter Ends

"If I can't learn to make myself feel better how can I expect anyone else to give a shit?"

-bright eyes

If you could change one thing about your past what would it be?

"That I would have loved harder the people who deserved it and not wasted it on the people who didn't."-Christopher Gutierrez

"You decide your own level of involvement."

I have no one left to blame.

I have a lot on my mind. I guess this means I'm back.