I couldn't have said it better.

"You’re a good friend with a bad tendency to get in over your head."

Trials

This is what a criminal must feel like in the time between the act and the apprehension.

Crimes

I could never hurt you the same ways you hurt me. I had to get creative.

I never have figured out how to become immune to the guilt.

This isn't cruelty, just self-preservation. You have a mother and I don't even humor the notion that you ever sleep alone.

You have so much to learn that I can't teach you.

Kind of funny that less than 24 hours after you apologized to me you let me down again.

Some things and people never change.

resolution.

Change is here.

Today the era of hope was ushered in. I've been making my own changes in the past month as well. I reconciled with someone that I hadn't spoken to in 6 months and it feels so good to let go of that negativity. Last night another apology was accepted, and although that wound is still fresh, I'm happy to say that I was strong enough not to spit back the words that I knew would rip you apart. I guess that fighting is in my nature. When I'm hurting, my reflex is to fight back with the most terrible words I can conjure. Dealing with my feelings in a more constructive way is the most difficult task I've ever set for myself. Sometimes the most simple words are the most true: Two wrongs don't make a right. What is right isn't always easy, and what is easy isn't always right. I can't control the way other people react but I am in complete control of myself and I'm constantly becoming more aware of the way my actions impact others. I can't make anyone change, only try to be a good example.

So I will continue to be hurt by you and many others, I'm sure. I'll use each blow as an opportunity to better myself. I know I won't always make the right choice, but from every mistake I promise to take a lesson away.

And most importantly, I will never let fear make me a prisoner. I'm going to keep loving with all my heart because to do it any other way would be a lie.