Change is here.
Today the era of hope was ushered in. I've been making my own changes in the past month as well. I reconciled with someone that I hadn't spoken to in 6 months and it feels so good to let go of that negativity. Last night another apology was accepted, and although that wound is still fresh, I'm happy to say that I was strong enough not to spit back the words that I knew would rip you apart. I guess that fighting is in my nature. When I'm hurting, my reflex is to fight back with the most terrible words I can conjure. Dealing with my feelings in a more constructive way is the most difficult task I've ever set for myself. Sometimes the most simple words are the most true: Two wrongs don't make a right. What is right isn't always easy, and what is easy isn't always right. I can't control the way other people react but I am in complete control of myself and I'm constantly becoming more aware of the way my actions impact others. I can't make anyone change, only try to be a good example.
So I will continue to be hurt by you and many others, I'm sure. I'll use each blow as an opportunity to better myself. I know I won't always make the right choice, but from every mistake I promise to take a lesson away.
And most importantly, I will never let fear make me a prisoner. I'm going to keep loving with all my heart because to do it any other way would be a lie.
