I want to cause the biggest scene. I want you to feel as shitty as I do. Worse. I never asked for you to love me, but your lack of respect for me is sickening. I've given too many chances to a boy who didn't deserve one. You made yourself clear but you don't have to be so cruel about it. I can't remember the last time I felt this terrible. I barely ate one meal yesterday. I felt sick all night and woke up with the same uneasy stomach. I don't know if it's because I'm hungry or anxious. Probably both. 

Keep talking, I'm glad that my pathetic personal life is such a hot topic. Keep talking, but remember that I hold a lot of your secrets, too. 

My head is on the chopping block today. Cut it off. At least then I'll get some peace.